
10/4/06, Wednesday - Addison Hope Mesa arrives at 7:35 a.m. by c-section, weighing 7 lbs 12 oz. After months of watching her on ultrasound, we were finally able to see her beautiful face. She was immediately whisked away to the nursery for evaluation and they found that both hips were displaced and her left femur was fractured. Her breathing slowed during this evaluation, so she was placed on a ventilator and a pain drip from the intense pain caused by her legs. The Mercy NICU was full, so she was transported to Baptist NICU around 12:00 p.m. My sweet pediatrician, Dr. Tammy Maschino, stayed with her the entire time until she was secure on the ambulance. Phillip joined Addison at Baptist NICU and stayed with her the rest of the day. He said that it was heart breaking to watch her face and body quiver anytime that her legs were moved. I was only able to see Addison briefly and from a distance. The orthopedic specialist was able to see Addison and confirmed that both hips were displaced, the femur was fractured, and took some xrays.
10/5/06, Thursday - Phillip spent the entire day with Addison. Addison remains on the ventilator, pain drip, and IVs. The occupation therapist made her a temporary positionary crate to lay in before they can fit her with a brace/cast for the hips and legs. They will not be able to brace her until she is off of the ventilator.
My lifetime friend, Brooke, drove up from Ft. Worth to spend the day with us. (Prior to her mommy career she was a NICU nurse, so she offered us so much advice in addition to love.) After spending the morning with me at Mercy, she spent the afternoon with Phillip and Addison. She explained all of the machines to Phillip and took some of the sweetest pictures of them. Then she had them developed and brought them to me at Mercy.

Things appeared to be more positive today with most of Addison's problems being orthopedic with the exception of the ventilator, which appeared to be necessary due to the sedated state from the pain drip.
10/6/06, Friday: Phillip took a break and took Megan to the zoo on Friday morning. They needed to spend some time together after Megan being at Grammy and Papa's since Tuesday evening. While they were there, Addison's neonatalogist called him and said that the Genetic Dr. had come by and ordered a MRI of her brain and spine. This was to be performed from 1:30-3:00 p.m. With this, they would have to sedate her more and put her in a more paralyzed state. Phillip called me to tell me of the situation, so I called Addison's nurse to get more details. I was very emotional and fearful of the increased anesthesia. Also, I was crushed to hear that neurological problems were being considered again. After I was discharged on Friday afternoon, Phillip took me to see and touch Addison for the first time around 5:00 p.m. She looked lifeless and was still heavily sedated. The nurses appeared very cold towards us, which didn't help me as I left my baby under their care. The Doctor talked to us and said that it could weeks before they can determine all of her conditions and test results and that she could be on a ventilator, etc. for weeks up to months. The future was just completely uncertain at this point. Obviously this was not the news that we were hoping and praying for. As a result, I sent out an email around 11:00 p.m. to all of our family and friends to pray for Addison to build up strength quickly and that God would sustain Phillip and I during this emotional time.
10/7/06, Saturday: I decided that I would stay at home today. Yesterday was too much on my own physical recovery. However I asked my parents to go see Addison and spend some time with her. Around 11:30 a.m., my Dad called and said that she looked wonderfully. The nurses, whom appeared incrediblyloving and caring towards her today, said that Addison had made a turn for the better and was barely needing the ventilator and they were going to try to take it off that afternoon. After contacting the respiratory therapist, they were able to take it off at 12:25 p.m. while my parents were still there with her. She did great. PRAYERS ARE ANSWERED!!!
At 4:00 p.m., I was able to visit Addison again and able to hold her in her positional crate and offer her the first sugar-water bottle. She is still hooked up to the pain drip and protein IV for nutrients. The entire hour that I was there, her eyes were open and she would coo and talk to me. She didn't drink much of the bottle as she has lost her natural sucking reflex during the last few days of being on the ventilator. My spirits were lifted as I saw my little Addison Hope with life in her eyes and body. THANK YOU GOD and THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS! I went home and then went back again with Phillip at 7:30 p.m. She was still doing well off of the ventilator and they were going to start weaning her off of the pain drip overnight. We slept so much better tonight.

10/8/06 - Sunday: Phillip and I went to see Addison for her 10:00 a.m. feeding. They took her off of the pain drip overnight and have substituted it with regular Infant Tylenol for pain management. Also her IV came out and they had trouble restarting it, so they are going to try to begin feeding her the breastmilk instead of the protein IV fluid. Addison was once again alert for the entire hour that we were with her. She studied Phillip intently as we talked to her and touched her sweet skin. We will not be able to actually hold her until she is fitted with the brace for her legs. Hopefully this will happen early this week. Her sucking is getting better as she loved having her "soothie" paci in her mouth the whole time that we were with her. She is also jaundice and having to stay under the lights during her sleeping times.
PLEASE CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR HER STRENGTH TO INCREASE DAILY. SHE IS STILL VERY FRAGILE AND WEAK. Pray for Phillip and I to continue to trust God and his wisdom as we face the medical tests and questions in the upcoming week(s). Keep Megan in your prayers as she is shuffled around to family and friends during our hospital visits. Thankfully we have an incredible support system.